I don't recognize Me
Me isn't here anymore
not in the house
not in the mirror
not in the inside of my soul
before the mirror
I only see
a stranger that replaced Me
I wish I could tell her to leave
that I don't need her anymore
her presence makes me uncomfortable
I wish she walked out the door
but she doesn't want to leave
she taunts me everyday
she makes me sad
she makes me angry
she takes my smile away
she robs me of the laughter
I had long ago
she steals my peace
she steals my grace
she stole who I was before
someday I will say to her
exactly what she needs to know
that I hate who she has made Me
that she's not welcomed anymore
that tomorrow will be the day
when she finally walks out the door
then I'll look in the mirror
I will see Me once more
and Me will be ... Beautiful
© 2011 Ellie Kings
Art by James Knowles
18 comments:
Ellie dear that is so sad, that part of you which is hurting so much is making you feel this way, you are still the same girl who has experienced this tragedy, it has left some very deep wounds which will take a long time to heal and there will always be scars my sweet friend but you will find yourself again and be able to feel whole and happy once again.
Love, Dianne. xoxoxo ♡
I hope you find peace Ellie, take good care.
Aww, Ellie, your poem is so sad and so moving.
Praying for you.
Ellie,
Your poem makes me silent, each line wriggling out from hurtful supplications, but somehow i feel a path will open....
Besides know that you don't have to ask to be beautiful again....YOU are beautiful!
What is in you is beautiful!
hugs
col.
nb: thanks for that sweet comment you left,dont know how i ,missed it out, they mean a lot to me.
This is touching and bears so much feeling. I have to echo what Craftsman of light said, you ARE beautiful.
You have the power to evoke such amazing images. You are truly gifted and beautiful.
This is a very powerful poem, Ellie. It sounds like a magical invocation.
Ellie...a wonderful moving poem. I've been there too. I think writing poems about those times helps you get through them. I wrote a poem about the moment someone died. I was in the room with them. It was something I will never forget...writing the poem gave me a sense of closer.
(hugs)
Time is the welcome healer...yet love floats far and wide, traveling so slowly...
Your feelings are so powerful and your talent so great.
Hugs to you dear one...please stop by my blog...I have something for you.
Actually,there is something on both my blogs for you...
My heart breaks when I read this...I am sending you my best thoughts and hugs dear one.
Where are you sweet Ellie? I am concerned. Sending you hugs and love.
Sending you today's morning sunshine!
col
Thank you all for your hugs, love and sunshine. I'm taking a little break from blogging. I'll be back as soon as I feel up to it again.
You take care dear Ellie.
Hi Ellie, I stumbled across your blog and wanted to say hello. I am from California. I want to say that I am sorry for your loss. What a journey you have been on. thank you for sharing your self through your precious words. It's a rare peek into your soul. Those that love deeply also hurt deeply at loss. You are a special person and I love that you sense the comfort of God in your life. Shalom.
Sending you love and hugs. Hope you are well. Remember to email me if you need to talk...((((hugs))) and blessings.
Ellie, i really like your poem, it's very creative but i'm sorry that you feel this way and yes...one day your heart will be completely healed and i pray it's so great that your poems will be drowning in love. I do write a bit of poetry myself, just using the gift that God gave me. And remember that Jesus is a continuous Light when life seems so Dark.
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