I'm not one to dwell on the past. But I've heard it said, 'those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it'. Remembering from time to time will help keep things in perspective. It allows us to adequately consider each minuscule or monumental event which contributed to our character development. It helps us answer the question, 'why?'. I'm no psychologist, but I must say, that I've read and experienced enough to know that everything in life happens for a season and a reason.
Without acknowledging our past or looking through the wormhole of our fears, we will never fully heal from it. The suffering we endured gives us greater insight and a profound connection to those that share the same pain. You've heard the phrase, 'I understand' from people who have no clue what you're speaking of. Though, they mean well, it is a little condescending. So when you finally do come across that person who says, 'I understand' and truly does understand because they lived through it themselves, then it is a relief. You realize you are not alone; that you weren't the only one who traveled the long, dark road.
I am fully aware that the horrible pain inflicted on us is for a greater purpose. Most times, we are pruned by fire so that when we tell another, 'I understand', we actually mean it. Although, Thanksgiving Day is a wonderful holiday because of what it represents, I've always felt there is no need to wait for one particular day to say 'thanks'. We should be grateful each and every day of our lives. With that said, today I wanted to share the reasons why I'm thankful with all of you as witnesses of my deep seeded gratitude.
Here goes. I'm thankful ...
- for being kidnapped by my father when I was four yrs old
- for having a fighting mother that never gave up the search
- for being abused as a child
- for knowing the bruised face of domestic violence through my mother's pain
- for seeing the ugly face of drug and alcohol addiction on family members
- for the tears, the heartbreaks, and rejections
- for the incompetent teachers who belittled assuming they were great mentors
- for the family who used manipulation and humiliation throughout the years
- for the depression that was the climax of it all
... but most of all, I'm thankful for being rescued by a loving God ... just in the nick of time.
My dear friends, I pray that on this Thanksgiving as you sit around the table with your loved ones, you remember my words. If only for a moment, look back at your past, look deep into the river of despair and thank God for bringing you out ... just in the nick of time. Enjoy your holiday and God bless!
Copyright © 2009 by Ellie Kings
*Art by the talented Joey Remmers