Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Dear God

Dear God
i have no where to hide
no where to run
but inside
the palm of your hand
the only place i feel safe
where the world is quiet
where each breath i take
is exhaled  by you

i feel lost
and i wanted to tell you
in case you hadn't noticed
you were probably too busy
to hear your daughter's cry

Dear God
have you left me
today i cannot find you
even though i've tried
come back, be near me
and stay with me awhile
i'm not strong enough, Lord
to face another day
to win another battle
to wear this heavy coat

can you hear me
from the throne you're in
or are you too far away
i just wanted to tell you
i need you more than ever
i can't do this on my own
please don't leave me today
stay with me until tomorrow

© 2011 Ellie Kings
Art in google images


Thisisme. said...

Lovely to see a post from you today Ellie. Beautiful, haunting words, and I do pray that each day it is getting just a little easier for you and that you will find the sun again one day.

Anonymous said...

Ellie! So good to see you! I have missed you! :o) I know how you feel as I have been there and still have my moments. Just be encouraged and know that God is with you even when it seems as though he is far away. He truly does care for you girl! I will keep you in my prayers! Love ya! :o)

Steve E said...

Elizabeth (I like that name!) somewhere I read: "...God could and would if He were sought."

And you certainly seek Him with fervor! But notice it says "if He were sought"...not "if He were caught".

I absolutely LOVE this post, your poem, I read it several times. Thank you!

BTW, He has not left you, He is maybe allowing you to grow, hoping that you know He is there, right by your side, nay, He is INSIDE you. THAT is where your God really resides! DEEP DOWN!


Steve E said...

Forgot to say it is wonderful to see you back here, believe me.

Anonymous said...

Hi Ellie, I found your blog through Steve, there you are present.
Now I've read a lot here and I am deeply moved by your verses.
I understand you so well ...
My love went ahead in 2007 to eternity ... and it still hurts ...
But I'm inspired by the beauty that God gives me ...
Best wishes and God's help and blessing,

Betty Manousos@ Cut and Dry said...

i'm on vacation but i just wanted to stop by and say hi.

it's great you're back.

touching poem..
loving your powerful poetry, ellie.

betty xx

Maria I. Morgan said...

Just had to check in and see if you had posted recently...so good to see that you have! Sounds like your struggle has been intense, but you're right - you're in the palm of God's hand. Although it may not feel like He's near, He's walking right beside you. "Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me," Psalms 139:7-10

Don't give up hope, Ellie, Jesus loves you!