Monday, August 29, 2011

If I were a Mother

I'll never be a mother to anyone
I won't get to see the ultrasound photo
I won't get to feel him growing inside
I won't know how it feels
to push him into this world

If I were a mother
I'd love him unconditionally
Knowing that he'll make mistakes
That it wouldn't matter to me
because after all he'd be my child

If I were a mother
I'd teach him the things I learned
I'd teach him to be a gentleman to a lady
I'd teach him to be an honest & faithful man
To know when to let his guard down
and let love in

If I were a mother
I'd know his weaknesses and his strengths
I'd give him security and shelter
I'd let him know that he could run to me
whenever he lost his way

If I were a mother
I'd teach him to be a wonderful man
But I won't be a mother
not to him or to her
They'll be a someone else's child
They'll be someone else's gift

© 2011 Ellie Kings
Art by Nancy Tillman


Steve E said...
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Steve E said...

Ellie, the deletions are all mine---cannot get used to commenting at the top. COMMENT:

All I could think of, after my own painful understanding of your loss, was that there is a 3-year old somewhere, possibly writing a piece which could be titled: IF I HAD A MOMMY

Everything, EVERYTHING is at it is.


I apologize for the mixups--grin!

August 29, 2011 7:10 PM

Thisisme. said...

Such a hauntingly, moving and beautiful poem....

Susan R. Mills said...

Beautifully written. I agree with Steve. There's most definitely a child somewhere who has written IF I HAD A MOMMY.

Noelle said...

Chilling as it stirs my heart today...thoughts I had been sitting on after many friends becomeing Mommys recently...and then came across your page. Unfortunately I feel I could have written this. Hope you are haning in there!

Donna B said...

Ellie, this breaks my heart...

Christine said...

Wondering how you are Ellie.